I love this boy.




That is all.




:)

Dear Mom,

I know that Mother's Day has come and gone but this particular week, I have wondered what I would ever do without my beautiful mother. 

I know this is cheesy but words cannot describe my love for my mother. Especially my words. It seems as though I can never get out my truest feelings in the form of... words. But here goes...

My mom is my hero. She's been my best friend for years. My shoulder to cry on. My advice specialist. My source of knowledge, my source of know-how, my #1 source. 

My mom is the greatest example to me. We've always gotten along. I've always looked to her more as a friend than as a parent. But she's been better than any friend could be because she loves me unconditionally and always puts my needs, and anyone's for that matter, before herself. I love her so much. She does so much for me. Sacrifices time, hobbies, sleep and always puts me first. She's the most talented person I know. She can do (and does do) just about everything. She could be anything she wanted. But she chose to be a mother. To be my mother. And being my mother requires a lot. She'll do things like stay up late (like 3am late) helping me finish unpacking our new house before company comes the next day. I just love her.


Dearest Mom,
I love you to the moon and back and around a couple times too. Thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for putting up with my phone calls to complain. Thanks for your uplifting words and inspiration. For your little love texts you send me throughout the week. Thank you for your prayers. Thank you for little splurge trips to Home Goods, for spoiling me to a lunch date. Thank you for your example of a constant desire to learn and grow. I want to be you when I grow up. I can only hope to be half the mother you have been to my own children someday. Thank you for believing in me when I've lost hope in myself. You are my rock.


I love you!


Alexandra

Hello world,

Hello world, 

Today was a good day.

This week has been.. not the best week.

This month has been... stressful.

My life has been, is and always will be wonderful.

{I really truly believe that}

It is wonderful because I am so blessed.

I'll admit, sometimes I forget.

I forget how blessed I am and sum up the nerve to consider for a moment that life could be better.

If only I were:

smarter

prettier

richer

healthier

skinnier

etc.

life would be better.

"Think of all the beauty still left around you, and be happy."

Happiness is a choice.

Focus on the positive things.

Focus on today.

No ifs of the future.

No buts from the past.

Life is good right where I'm at.

Not everything is perfect.

Which is perfectly fine with me.

Babies Everywhere!

ok. i'm going nuts-o.
There are babies EVERYWHERE these days. I'm being hounded. Baby commercials. Friends getting prego with babies. Babies in stores who smile at us from grocery carts. Baby stories on TLC. Babies on blogs. Babies last night on tv that almost made me cry {ridiculous?}, babies in class, TALKING about babies in class, babies that wave and smile at me in parking lots like they know ... something. what the heck is going on?

I keep going back and forth talking myself in-and-out, in-and-out of this whole psychological hounding I've been getting. Brain thought: "We've been married one year ... I'm almost done with school ... it could work ... oh stop thinking about it, it's not part of the plan ... we need this time together ... but what if you're getting these thoughts because you CAN'T get pregnant and you need to start trying now ... but then what if you get pregnant right away? and you're still in school? and what about money ... and what about those times that you are so glad that you hadn't started a family yet because you needed time with husband? ... yes, but it's time ... NO ... just calm down, it's not time."
Okay? you see? I'm going bi-polar here!! I'm a freakin nut-case about this and I shouldn't be


I don't mean to alarm anyone, or give the impression that we're gonna go make ourselves a baby just because I'm having a 'heart-attack', {if you will}.


And surprisingly... I do feel a little bit better now. So ... there you go.

awkward/awesome

My week thus far...
Awkward...

-Walking in a certain direction and then realizing that I actually need to be going the other direction … an awkward moment in and of itself. So what's the only logical reaction for a situation like this? Of course whipping out my cell phone, feigning an urgent text and furrowing my brow so that anyone who's watching me knows there's some kind of explanation for my abrupt 180. You know you do it.

-The half a second it gets quiet in Relief Society and suddenly my stomach decides to start rumbling. Over and over and over again. So then I have to cover for it right? So I make awkward, I'm sorry people faces and hold my stomach. Sometimes I wish I could just stand up and be like "Um. Excuse me. My stomach is going to be making some very loud noises for the next 20 minutes. So if you could just not look at me ... That would be great. OK thanks."

-Trying to open a door by pushing. And then seeing the sign that says PULL. But there's people around, so you have to cover and be like "oh woopsies. didn't see that sign there. ha-ha .................... ha."

-This problem I have with my nails polish. See, if one nail chips off a little, suddenly they all have to go. But this is done pretty much subconsciously. So I'll be sitting there, and then I'll look down and be like, what the?? WHO scraped all my nail polish off? And why is there a sparkly mess in my lap?
It's very confusing.

- Jammin to my washing machine. I swear I could hear drums AND a base in last night's performance.

-Wearing my dirty, unwashed hair in a sumo bun... everyday... since Monday.

-Pulling an extremely long hair out of Tyrel's eyebrow. Sexy as always ;)

-My hair after I woke up this morning. Must be killin those dance moves in my sleep.

Awesome...

-Husband unconsciously rubbing my legs... even though they desperately need to be shaved. Ah the blissfulness of the comfortability of marriage.

-Chocolate chip waffles for breakfast. Need I say more?

-Adding something to my to do list that I've already done just so I can cross it off to feel that much more accomplished.

-Husband did the laundry today! All by himself! And I didn't even ask him to :)

-Good morning toothpaste kisses from husband.

-Vanilla Coke... seriously, where has this been all my life?! I am just now starting to live.

-Listening to dad wheeze/laugh as he's trying to tell a joke but can't because it's that hilarious. :)

-Having a grilled cheese sandwich & tomato soup for dinner for the 3rd night in a row. Three cheers for being on that tight of a budget.

Happy Wednesday friends :)

Hunsaker Family Pictures

This family is just about the cutest family you will ever meet! It was so fun to spend part of the afternoon with them at Town Square... Beautiful weather and gorgeous people! Doesn't get much better than that :) 
(I'm sorry they're small and a little blurry! Still getting the hang of the blog thing. I promise they won't be like this when you get them on a disc :))

Valentine's Day

heres to love...

heres to good morning toothpaste kisses

heres to mothers who know just what to say

heres to your dad telling you he's proud

heres to gentleman opening doors

heres to sunsets

heres to heart shaped chocolate boxes

heres to poetry and sappy movies

heres to putting forth your whole heart

heres to accepting ones self

heres to forgiving and forgetting

heres to smiles from strangers

heres to laughing just because

wishing you all a very happy Valentines Day

filled with love {of any kind}

Blurry picture of husband and I in Salt Lake at a cousin's wedding :)